Jamerikoi
Joined: 13 Jul 2009 Posts: 17 Location: Tokyo
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Posted: Mon Jul 20, 2009 6:37 pm Post subject: |
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This is my first time to Japan, and I've been here for a year. After working for a while in the outdoor industry, I detonated my knee and spent a month in the hospital.
Now that I'm broke and unable to work physical jobs, I've turned to teaching English without much luck. I have a few privates, but English schools won't hire me. They won't even hire me at McDonalds... and yea I want a #1. A #1 is a meal ('set' whatever). Why be redundant? No free refills? Yo my sprite is served in a ketchup cup.
I feel like I've lost my mind. I hear my cellphone ring when it's not ringing. I get annoyed at noises and objects talking at me. I wish everyone presented themselves with their own personality and expressed themselves less robotically. I feel like people are polite and nice not because they genuinely feel that way, but because of fear. I don't like crowded places when I'm depressed, so I end up locking myself in my room for days at a time. I enjoy standing out as a unique individual and express myself, but am frowned upon, particularly because I am Japanese. Family quarrels, alcohol and miscommunication lead to domestic violence hence I choose to spend some nights out on the streets sleeping on cardboard.
I want to focus on the positive aspects of being here, but I don't know how much longer I'll make it here. I just want to save enough to fly back and live on the streets... bust my ass to get back on my feet.
I hope some of you know where I'm comin' from.
Peace. |
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