n3ptne
Joined: 14 Sep 2005 Location: Poh*A*ng City
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Posted: Sun May 28, 2006 6:28 am Post subject: When it all gets normal... |
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I'll preface this post with a sort of description. I'm sitting out West, deep country, well not too deep, in a convent and sifting through my new daily ulcer prescriptions to take out the 5mg muscle relaxer that I'm told is a second cousin of Valium. About ten minutes ago I swiped a beer from the kitchen, I don't think the nuns are going to mind, as I read somewhere that it's there mission in life to forgive.
All this brings me to my point. This is the second time I've made it out this way to visit my Aunt and I've been in country now just under eight months. The first time I came out this way was just a hair breath into my contract here and the bus ride out brought back the feelings of anxiousness, or not quite, just newness of the whole place.
For awhile now I've begun to think that it all feels normal, almost like home, and sure enough most of the "must dos" I put on my list before coming have been fulfilled except for trying dog and whale. Now everything just doesn't seem normal but it seems comfortable, and still there isnt even the hint of homesickness or culture shock. Sure I miss friends, even the ones who have seemingly dropped off the radar since I came, and some of the food too, but there isn't anything I miss about living there.
I kind of wonder where this comfortableness is going to stagnate and devolve into a situation where I don't like living here anymore, I doubt it but surely it could happen. And then I wonder what's going to be next? Hoping around from country to country until they all feel comfortable?
Whether the fresh car smell is the most important thing or if theres something more?
Not sure, was wondering what other people of a similar predicament, if any, have figured out in regards to such matters.
Time to finish my beer, have a smoke, and get to sleep... Ulcer's are for women. |
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